Welcome 2013

Whooooa, It’s last day on 2012. Perasaan baru kemaren deh ngerayain tahun baru 2012, sekarang udah mau tahun 2013 aja.

Well, actually I can’t see what the special thing from new year. Karena yaa ngerasa tahun baru sama kaya malem malem lainnya. Makanya, It’s okay for me to not celebrate new year eve outside. It’s okay for me just to stay at my bed while watching new year eve celebration on TV. I dont know, but I just don’t comfort with the crowded people. Walaupun keliatannya saya orangnya begitu ceria dan open, tetep aja saya lebih milih keadaan yang sepi dan tenang. Karena biasanya, inspirasi suka muncul kalo keadaan sepi dan tenang.

How’s about the resolution? Before we talk about resolution. It’s better for me to re-check my resolution on 2012.

Let’s Check.

First,  wanna have better IPK, at least : 3,2 >> Almost accomplished. My IPK 3,18 now, better but my target is 3,2 

Second, have scholarship >> on progress. Semoga dapet ya Allah, amiiin

Third, Participating on MUN >> FAILED

Fourth, Symphonesia >> It’s okay, but finally I prefer to be ticketing staff. Oh ya, for your info, I also become Head  Marketing Department of HIMA for next year loh (2013) Alhamdulillah.

Fifth, save more money >> FAILED

Sixth, sholat >> selalu berusaha sholat, kecuali subuh.uhuhuhu

Seventh, diet >> TOTALLY FAILED. Udah kaya bolo bolo nih badan

Eighth, freelance>> FAILED, I just dont have much time

Nineth, Onlineshop >> MISSION ACCOMPLISHED!

                                                  

See? Masih banyak resolusi 2012 yang belom ataupun gagal tercapai. 

Nah, now, what’s my resolutions on 2013?

First, kayanya ini harus ditaroh di awal list deh. Sholat lima waktu!  My father always notice me about that. And the hardest is... sholat subuh! Makanya di tahun 2013 ini mau berusaha supaya sholatnya full. Ga begadang lagi, waktu tidur normal, biar subuh ngga ketinggalan sholat. God, please help meeee.. Amiiin

Second, about my college. IPK harus makin naik, makin rajin ngampus, ngerjain tugas. Dapet beasiswa. Kalo bisa ikut MUN, ikut exchange. Amiiin

Third, HIMA and Symphonesia. I just have big responsible. Semoga semuanya bisa berjalan baik dan lancaar. Amiiin

Fourth, mau bahasa mandarin dan spanyol lancaaaaar. Tapi english juga harus lancar bangeeet, kudu! Anak HI kok englishnya masih belepotan? Sediiih L Semoga semuanya lancar buat belajar lg foreign language. Amiiin

Fifth, onlineshop. Samaaa, semoga lancaaar, untung onlineshop kudu diputer lagi buat modal. Amiiin

Sixth, save more money. Ahahahaa. Ini ga usah dijelasin tapi harus! Amiiin

Seventh, DIET! Yaampun, ini resolusi udah dari tahun berapa, tapi tetep aja ga tercapai. Pokoknya harus 2013, harus kuruuus. Amiiin

Eighth, and maybe the last is move on! Ahahahaha .. harus terima kenyataan. Harus lebih bisa buka diri ke siapa aja. Yang berlalu, udah berlalu :p

Daaaan, di setiap doa dan pengharapan, yang selalu ditulis disini, sama : Ya Allah, tolong jaga 3 orang yang paling kusayang : Aba, Ibu, Adek. Their happiness is my happiness too..

And..

Welcome 2013

Pertanyaaan Sebelum Tidur

Life is full of surprise ya? Contohnya adalah waktu pertama kali masuk HI Unpad. Bener-bener ngga kebayang bakalan masuk HI Unpad. Accidently :p

But I know, there's always a reason why anything happened. Begitupun ketika masuk HI Unpad. Recently, I just imagined, what I have got, and what I have done at this place. Alhamdulillah, most of all so much fun. Good friends, good place, good food, good people, good knowledge! 

Karena HI Unpad, Saya bisa banyak ketemu orang - orang hebat. Sebelumnya, Saya bukan siapa-siapa. Too scientific, I think. I didn't usual to took a part as committee or to organize an organization. But recently, I always busy as the committee or take a part on any orgaization. How's HI Unpad change my life ya?

Contoh lainnya adalah ketika masuk HI Unpad, I just think that I become more open minded. Dan saya juga lebih terbuka juga sama orang - orang. I just enjoy every step of my life. 

And last, and maybe the most important is... met you. Yes, YOU! Hmmmph, I just dont know why recently I just think about you. But I always remember how's we first met. We just have similar history before. And we just had a long conversation. Tapi itu dulu. Sekarang? And, once again, I dont know why I wanna screaming everytime I look at you? I just wanna scream : "Halloo, I just wanna talk with you, laughing, and have a long conversation!" But the fact? When I look at you, I just get myself in silence. Like stranger.

So, if HI Unpad is my destiny, would HI Unpad become our destiny, together?

NGAREEEEP, HAAAAL !

Thought

Actually, too much things spinning in my head now. I just think that recently, I just not be my self to impress other people. I know that my life is far from perfectness. And sometimes, I also feel envy with the better other's life. So, I just try to make my life perfect and complete. Trying to get what I dont have before, and then impress the others to care and get attention from them.

But once again, it is true if people said that if we are meant to get something, there is always be a way. We are not need to become not original or fake, to get what we want. Sometimes, I think life is not fair. But deeply, I know that each person has own life,  and each person has happiness and the bitter moment in their life.

And, one thing again, I know that in our life, not everything that we can achieve. If we can get happiness in one side, maybe we have to sacrifice the others side to be the bitter side in our life. YES, life is not perfect. 

There's always the sweet and the bitter side of everyone's life.

So, how about my life? Sure, I have sweet and bitter side of my life. The sweet one? Complete family! I always thankful to God for it. And if I can choose, I willingly choose to be poor person with ugly face AS LONG AS the 3 most persons that I Love (Aba+Ibu+Adek)  can get long life, stay healthy, and get their happiness.

And now, Alhamdulillah, Allah always hear my prays. Aba+Ibu+Adek can get long life, stay healthy, and we can complete each other to become happy family. Hope that Allah will always hear my these pray.

Maybe my life is not perfect. But family is more than just perfectness. Oh god, I dont hope anything again, a-ny-thing, as long as You guide my family :) Amiiin, and thankyou Allah :)

14-12-2012

Whaaaat a wonderful day!!

Ahahha, akhirnya kangen homesick agak sedikit terobati, karena hari ini Ibu jauh jauh dateng dari Palembang ke Jatinangor. Mungkin 1 hari ga cukup, tapi yalumayanlahyaaaaa terobati rasa kangennya.

Cant wait to see next holiday, and go back to my home sooooon :) Cant wait to see my father and my brother too.

Homesick + Stress + No Money

Gimana sih ngejelasinnya? Udah homesick, deadline membludak, duit abis.

So?

Homesick :(

There are many things spinning in my head right now. I feel homesick, homesick, and homesick all the time. Cant wait to see my family before I go to KKN :( So, I issued a  ticket flight to Palembang for 27 December, even I dont know in that time, have I get my holiday? Such as gambling thing. Too dare for me. But, I just wanna go home :( Hope that before christmas  holiday, college schedule will end. So, I can go back to my home, hug my family :( uhuhuhu... Pleaaaase Goood :(

Absurd ?

Entah kenapa, akhir akhir ini ngerasa banyak dikecewain sama orang - orang sekitar. Pepatah kalo " Some people stick with you only because they have no one to stick with but when they found someone else, they will just leave you alone " itu bener adanya.

Entah lagi ngerasa terlalu sensitif ataupun apa, tapi kejadian akhir akhir ini begitu ngebuat saya menjadi orang realist kalo dalam ideologi Hubungan Internasional. Realist percaya kalo manusia itu dasarnya adalah mahluk jahat yang akan melakukan apapun untuk mendapatkan tujuannya. Dan,pada akhirnya, membuat saya berpikir... Apakah orang - orang yang saat ini dekat dengan saya hanya ingin mendapatkan tujuannya ataupun hanya ingin memanfaatkan saya? Apa ketika saya ngga punya apa - apa, mereka tetep mau bersama dengan saya? Atau ketika mereka bertemu orang lain yang mungkin akan lebih baik dari saya, apakah saya akan ditinggalkan?

Mungkin ini posting paling absurd di blog ini. Tapi satu hal, apapun, gimanapun keadannya, The one and only person that will stick with you is family. Mauuuu pulaaang :(( Ya Allah, mohoooon banget abis natal, sebelum KKN, perkuliahan udah selesai dan bisa balik ke Palembang :(((( 

Aminn.