Pertanyaaan Sebelum Tidur

Life is full of surprise ya? Contohnya adalah waktu pertama kali masuk HI Unpad. Bener-bener ngga kebayang bakalan masuk HI Unpad. Accidently :p

But I know, there's always a reason why anything happened. Begitupun ketika masuk HI Unpad. Recently, I just imagined, what I have got, and what I have done at this place. Alhamdulillah, most of all so much fun. Good friends, good place, good food, good people, good knowledge! 

Karena HI Unpad, Saya bisa banyak ketemu orang - orang hebat. Sebelumnya, Saya bukan siapa-siapa. Too scientific, I think. I didn't usual to took a part as committee or to organize an organization. But recently, I always busy as the committee or take a part on any orgaization. How's HI Unpad change my life ya?

Contoh lainnya adalah ketika masuk HI Unpad, I just think that I become more open minded. Dan saya juga lebih terbuka juga sama orang - orang. I just enjoy every step of my life. 

And last, and maybe the most important is... met you. Yes, YOU! Hmmmph, I just dont know why recently I just think about you. But I always remember how's we first met. We just have similar history before. And we just had a long conversation. Tapi itu dulu. Sekarang? And, once again, I dont know why I wanna screaming everytime I look at you? I just wanna scream : "Halloo, I just wanna talk with you, laughing, and have a long conversation!" But the fact? When I look at you, I just get myself in silence. Like stranger.

So, if HI Unpad is my destiny, would HI Unpad become our destiny, together?

NGAREEEEP, HAAAAL !

Thought

Actually, too much things spinning in my head now. I just think that recently, I just not be my self to impress other people. I know that my life is far from perfectness. And sometimes, I also feel envy with the better other's life. So, I just try to make my life perfect and complete. Trying to get what I dont have before, and then impress the others to care and get attention from them.

But once again, it is true if people said that if we are meant to get something, there is always be a way. We are not need to become not original or fake, to get what we want. Sometimes, I think life is not fair. But deeply, I know that each person has own life,  and each person has happiness and the bitter moment in their life.

And, one thing again, I know that in our life, not everything that we can achieve. If we can get happiness in one side, maybe we have to sacrifice the others side to be the bitter side in our life. YES, life is not perfect. 

There's always the sweet and the bitter side of everyone's life.

So, how about my life? Sure, I have sweet and bitter side of my life. The sweet one? Complete family! I always thankful to God for it. And if I can choose, I willingly choose to be poor person with ugly face AS LONG AS the 3 most persons that I Love (Aba+Ibu+Adek)  can get long life, stay healthy, and get their happiness.

And now, Alhamdulillah, Allah always hear my prays. Aba+Ibu+Adek can get long life, stay healthy, and we can complete each other to become happy family. Hope that Allah will always hear my these pray.

Maybe my life is not perfect. But family is more than just perfectness. Oh god, I dont hope anything again, a-ny-thing, as long as You guide my family :) Amiiin, and thankyou Allah :)

14-12-2012

Whaaaat a wonderful day!!

Ahahha, akhirnya kangen homesick agak sedikit terobati, karena hari ini Ibu jauh jauh dateng dari Palembang ke Jatinangor. Mungkin 1 hari ga cukup, tapi yalumayanlahyaaaaa terobati rasa kangennya.

Cant wait to see next holiday, and go back to my home sooooon :) Cant wait to see my father and my brother too.

Homesick + Stress + No Money

Gimana sih ngejelasinnya? Udah homesick, deadline membludak, duit abis.

So?

Homesick :(

There are many things spinning in my head right now. I feel homesick, homesick, and homesick all the time. Cant wait to see my family before I go to KKN :( So, I issued a  ticket flight to Palembang for 27 December, even I dont know in that time, have I get my holiday? Such as gambling thing. Too dare for me. But, I just wanna go home :( Hope that before christmas  holiday, college schedule will end. So, I can go back to my home, hug my family :( uhuhuhu... Pleaaaase Goood :(

Absurd ?

Entah kenapa, akhir akhir ini ngerasa banyak dikecewain sama orang - orang sekitar. Pepatah kalo " Some people stick with you only because they have no one to stick with but when they found someone else, they will just leave you alone " itu bener adanya.

Entah lagi ngerasa terlalu sensitif ataupun apa, tapi kejadian akhir akhir ini begitu ngebuat saya menjadi orang realist kalo dalam ideologi Hubungan Internasional. Realist percaya kalo manusia itu dasarnya adalah mahluk jahat yang akan melakukan apapun untuk mendapatkan tujuannya. Dan,pada akhirnya, membuat saya berpikir... Apakah orang - orang yang saat ini dekat dengan saya hanya ingin mendapatkan tujuannya ataupun hanya ingin memanfaatkan saya? Apa ketika saya ngga punya apa - apa, mereka tetep mau bersama dengan saya? Atau ketika mereka bertemu orang lain yang mungkin akan lebih baik dari saya, apakah saya akan ditinggalkan?

Mungkin ini posting paling absurd di blog ini. Tapi satu hal, apapun, gimanapun keadannya, The one and only person that will stick with you is family. Mauuuu pulaaang :(( Ya Allah, mohoooon banget abis natal, sebelum KKN, perkuliahan udah selesai dan bisa balik ke Palembang :(((( 

Aminn.

I Dont Know

I dont know..
I dont know..
I dont know..

Surprisingly I knew something. BUT do I have to BELIEVE?
Oh God, if is it TRUE, It will be one of the happiest part of my life.
Amiiiin.

But, I dont know...
Arrrrrfggg, there are  a lot things spinned in my head. And I just cant say/write it.
Too complicated..

Happy Birthday Ibu !!

Today, 28 September 2012, is my mom's bday. She is 47th years old now :) All my prays for her God, please guide her everytime. Semoga panjang umur, sehat selalu, dan bahagia selalu. 

I LOVE YOU IBUUUK :))

TIRED!

Hati kacau, pikiran mumet, deadline membludak, jadwal padat, pressure tinggi. What else? Oh God, I just too tired. Gonna back to my home soon hug my parent to recharge my energy.

First Day @Kost (Again)

Almost 3 weeks spent my holiday at Palembang are not enough. I just want more holidays.

That's it !! When, we're around our family, everything seems very happy and joyful. When we're watchinbg TV together, when I helped my mom cooking, when I had joke with my bro, when I had discussed with my dad, all those things make me happy :) And I cant find it in here :(

So, God, I want next holiday can come faster too :) Cant wait to see all of them. I love them. Please guide me in here, and make my way easier to make them proud. Also take care and guide them to in there. Because their healthy and their happiness are my strength too. Amiiin

Happy Bday Dad !

Every year, your birthday reminds me how grateful I am that you are my father.
Dad, I'm praying a birthday prayer for you :)
Semoga panjang umur, sehat selalu, murah rezeki, dan selalu berada dalam lindungan Allah SWT.
Amiiiin

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 Why I have to love someone who never can love/ care about me ? I have GREAT MOM and DAD who never leave me, always care and love me. So, why I can not just try to love them and try to make them proud ?!?!

Life is about take and give. They always support, care, and love me. And now it's my time to show them that I really love them and wanna make them proud of me. Forget about the people that never love or respect you, but just love and make a joy with the people that love you too :)

I love U Abah and Ibu :)))

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Tuhaan, maaf selama ini aku terlalu sering mengeluh.. Aku sadar dibalik semua kekuranganku, Engkau tela memberikan banyak kelebihan yang kadang tidak kusadari untuk melengkapi hidupku.

Terimakasih untuk masih mengasihi orang tuaku dan menjaga mereka sampai sekarang.. Terimakasih juga karena telah memberikan teman - teman yang selalu mengerti dan ada di setiap suka dan duka. Terimakasih juga untuk nikmat lainnya, rezeki yang dilimpahkan, dll.

Pokoknya terimakasih ya Allah. Love U more <3 <3

Random

Hmmmph, mungkin ngerasa bosen kali yaa, kalo di twitter selalu ngeluh jadi jomblo..ahahhaa, sueer itu terkadang cuma buat fun doang, walaupun tetep sih, di dalem hati terdalam jenuh juga jadi jomblo..

ahahhaaha

Tapi, setelah diinget inget, aku udah punya semuanya yang aku butuhin !! yaa aku butuhiin !! Orang - orang yang sayang sepenuhnya, yaaa !!

Abah/ Ibu , pasti !! mereka tulus mencintai, menyayangi, perhatian. I love them. Kakak/Ayuk/Sepupu, walaupun ga semuanyaa tapi tetep beruntung punya mereka. Tante/Om walaupun mereka kadang agak menyebalkan, tapi aku tau mereka baik. Mulailah selalu berpikiran positif hal. Tanpa mereka, aku ga mungkin kaya gini :)

Dan last but not least, TEMEN !! Makasiiih udah menciptakan temen temen yang selalu ada. Spending time together with friends can make me enjoy this life and forget all my problem.

TERIMAKASIHH <3

FAKE

FAKE !!


Yaaa !! Me !! Fakee !! Ngerasa udah terlalu banyak kebohongan yang udah dibuat. It shows me that I havent already to be my self. Trying to attract the others by lying. Poor me yaaa.. I've tried to attract people that even dont care about me. 

Can I be become original? Be my self after all this bullshit?? 

Nineteen :)

Alhamdulillah yaaah, today is the last day for me to be 18. Tomorrow, I will turn to 19. Feel that time go so fast.

Ahhahaha, emang ga kerasa udah mau 19 tahun aja. Karena perasaan baru aja kemaren - kemaren ngerayain ultah ke-14 sama temen - temen SMP. And this is the second year too for me, celebrate my birthday far away from my family and my home :( hikss :((

Di umur 19 tahun, pertama - tama saya mau bersyukur kepada Allah. Thanks for all happiness that you give to me, thanks for yesterday and today, pls bless me and my family tomorrow, next day, and everyday.

Terima kasih udah dikasih kesempatan ngerayain ulang tahun ke 19 tahun.
Terima kasih udah ngejaga aba, ibu, adek sehingga mereka sehat, dan selalu dilindunganMu.
Terima kasih atas pengalaman, apapun itu, tears, laugh, happiness, sadness, it teach me well :)
Terima kasih atas rezeki yang udah dilimpahkan :)
Terima kasih krn udah mengirimkan orang - orang terbaik ke dalam kehidupan saya :)

Daan diumur 19 ini, saya harap...

Menjadi orang yang lebih baik, bisa banggain orang tua.
IPK harus naik, harus bagus :))
Lebih atif dan berguna :)
Online shop lancaaaar :))

Dan yang utama di setiap doa : God, pls guide my parent and my little brother. Make them stay healthy and make happiness stay around them. They are my strength :) Amiiiiiiiiin :)))

ISEEENG , KUIS !!

1. Skip, I'm not gonna talk about this number.

2. One year ago, maybe I cried at my bed, remembered about my fam in Palembang, homesick.

3. My current relationship status : SINGLE . Anybody wanna make relationship with me ??:p

4. In 5 Years time, I've graduated from my college, will be work on multinational company, and have own business. Amiiin :))

5. My current goals : about IPK, get better. Get scholarship, my onlineshop project success.

6. Something I'm not proud of : SENSITIVE. Yes, I'm too sensitive to care about the people say or judge about me.

7. Best day my life so far, when I accepted become a member of International Relation UNPAD. Great day bcz can make my parent proud of me.

8. Worst day ? When my dad fallen from a stair and had to take a rest at hospital. It's like horrible day.

9. Never count, but I have many :) Thanks God !

10. Yes, I wanna change this : not being a sensitive girl again. Try to not care about all people about me.

11. Ahaaha, just try live and face the reality.

12. Look at no.8 answer. And for sure, u know exactly the answer :)

13. There are many that I proud of !! Ahahhaa, I'm smart, beautiful, and also kind girl :)))))

14. I don't know, really. I don't think I have any.

15. Mmmm, yes this laptop !! ahahaha, about 3 million to buy this laptop :) Alhamdulillah

16. *Thinking bout him* Yes, almost 23 :)

17. Barbie, I thought that barbie's life very happy although it just a fairytale

18. Chemistry, Math, and English. For chemichal and math, idk why I have to good at those subject, the saintific.

19. NONE, I dont care about this. Really.

20. Okay, that's it. I was just bored. Sorry for boring you. Kisses and hugs

My Online Shop :*

Hi :))) After almost 3 months, I'll back for my new post. So sorry, but I don't know, in this 3 months, I have no idea to post on my blog. Yes, on january, I was very buzy bcz of my holiday :p, and after that, in the middle of february, I had to face the reality again, yeah college life. And now, I'll back again :)))

Actually, I have no idea about what I wanna really post in here. But, maybe I'll tell you about my online shop. Yeah, alhamdulillah, since february, I took the challenge to make an online shop, but with my own capital. Actually I've have online shop since senior high school, but in that time, I just join reseller program, and not used my own capital. And now, I try to use my own capital and make my own management. It's true, with my own capital, I will be more busy, and the risk will bigger, but I wanna manage my online shop with my own way, and alhamdulillah, this project growing smoothly :)

Now, I'll show you my online shop' collection, feel free to ask or buy or maybe join the reseller program :)

Find and check my online shop on Facebook : VH's Oshop or follow on twitter : @VHshop.

And this is me. wearing VH's Oshop Collection :))

Code : Feb7, Soft Blue. IDR 85.000



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