Pertanyaaan Sebelum Tidur

Life is full of surprise ya? Contohnya adalah waktu pertama kali masuk HI Unpad. Bener-bener ngga kebayang bakalan masuk HI Unpad. Accidently :p

But I know, there's always a reason why anything happened. Begitupun ketika masuk HI Unpad. Recently, I just imagined, what I have got, and what I have done at this place. Alhamdulillah, most of all so much fun. Good friends, good place, good food, good people, good knowledge! 

Karena HI Unpad, Saya bisa banyak ketemu orang - orang hebat. Sebelumnya, Saya bukan siapa-siapa. Too scientific, I think. I didn't usual to took a part as committee or to organize an organization. But recently, I always busy as the committee or take a part on any orgaization. How's HI Unpad change my life ya?

Contoh lainnya adalah ketika masuk HI Unpad, I just think that I become more open minded. Dan saya juga lebih terbuka juga sama orang - orang. I just enjoy every step of my life. 

And last, and maybe the most important is... met you. Yes, YOU! Hmmmph, I just dont know why recently I just think about you. But I always remember how's we first met. We just have similar history before. And we just had a long conversation. Tapi itu dulu. Sekarang? And, once again, I dont know why I wanna screaming everytime I look at you? I just wanna scream : "Halloo, I just wanna talk with you, laughing, and have a long conversation!" But the fact? When I look at you, I just get myself in silence. Like stranger.

So, if HI Unpad is my destiny, would HI Unpad become our destiny, together?

NGAREEEEP, HAAAAL !

Thought

Actually, too much things spinning in my head now. I just think that recently, I just not be my self to impress other people. I know that my life is far from perfectness. And sometimes, I also feel envy with the better other's life. So, I just try to make my life perfect and complete. Trying to get what I dont have before, and then impress the others to care and get attention from them.

But once again, it is true if people said that if we are meant to get something, there is always be a way. We are not need to become not original or fake, to get what we want. Sometimes, I think life is not fair. But deeply, I know that each person has own life,  and each person has happiness and the bitter moment in their life.

And, one thing again, I know that in our life, not everything that we can achieve. If we can get happiness in one side, maybe we have to sacrifice the others side to be the bitter side in our life. YES, life is not perfect. 

There's always the sweet and the bitter side of everyone's life.

So, how about my life? Sure, I have sweet and bitter side of my life. The sweet one? Complete family! I always thankful to God for it. And if I can choose, I willingly choose to be poor person with ugly face AS LONG AS the 3 most persons that I Love (Aba+Ibu+Adek)  can get long life, stay healthy, and get their happiness.

And now, Alhamdulillah, Allah always hear my prays. Aba+Ibu+Adek can get long life, stay healthy, and we can complete each other to become happy family. Hope that Allah will always hear my these pray.

Maybe my life is not perfect. But family is more than just perfectness. Oh god, I dont hope anything again, a-ny-thing, as long as You guide my family :) Amiiin, and thankyou Allah :)

14-12-2012

Whaaaat a wonderful day!!

Ahahha, akhirnya kangen homesick agak sedikit terobati, karena hari ini Ibu jauh jauh dateng dari Palembang ke Jatinangor. Mungkin 1 hari ga cukup, tapi yalumayanlahyaaaaa terobati rasa kangennya.

Cant wait to see next holiday, and go back to my home sooooon :) Cant wait to see my father and my brother too.

Homesick + Stress + No Money

Gimana sih ngejelasinnya? Udah homesick, deadline membludak, duit abis.

So?

Homesick :(

There are many things spinning in my head right now. I feel homesick, homesick, and homesick all the time. Cant wait to see my family before I go to KKN :( So, I issued a  ticket flight to Palembang for 27 December, even I dont know in that time, have I get my holiday? Such as gambling thing. Too dare for me. But, I just wanna go home :( Hope that before christmas  holiday, college schedule will end. So, I can go back to my home, hug my family :( uhuhuhu... Pleaaaase Goood :(

Absurd ?

Entah kenapa, akhir akhir ini ngerasa banyak dikecewain sama orang - orang sekitar. Pepatah kalo " Some people stick with you only because they have no one to stick with but when they found someone else, they will just leave you alone " itu bener adanya.

Entah lagi ngerasa terlalu sensitif ataupun apa, tapi kejadian akhir akhir ini begitu ngebuat saya menjadi orang realist kalo dalam ideologi Hubungan Internasional. Realist percaya kalo manusia itu dasarnya adalah mahluk jahat yang akan melakukan apapun untuk mendapatkan tujuannya. Dan,pada akhirnya, membuat saya berpikir... Apakah orang - orang yang saat ini dekat dengan saya hanya ingin mendapatkan tujuannya ataupun hanya ingin memanfaatkan saya? Apa ketika saya ngga punya apa - apa, mereka tetep mau bersama dengan saya? Atau ketika mereka bertemu orang lain yang mungkin akan lebih baik dari saya, apakah saya akan ditinggalkan?

Mungkin ini posting paling absurd di blog ini. Tapi satu hal, apapun, gimanapun keadannya, The one and only person that will stick with you is family. Mauuuu pulaaang :(( Ya Allah, mohoooon banget abis natal, sebelum KKN, perkuliahan udah selesai dan bisa balik ke Palembang :(((( 

Aminn.