Maaaaf :('

Kamis, 12 Mei 2010

One of my worst day ever.. Merasa B.O.D.O.H karena bisa kemalingan L.A.P.T.O.P. Adeuhh haaal :( tolol banget sih lo?? ceroboh banget !! Ga bisa jaga barang !! Kenapa lo slalu ngerepotin !!??

In my pray, I always ask God to make my parent happy, proud of me. Kenyataaannya ??? Saya sungguh terlalu menyebalkan. Hanya bisa bikin orang susah !! That's why I hate myself !!

And Last, I wanna say...
Maaf, karena saya selalu menyebalkan..
Maaf, karena saya selalu ngerepotin..
Maaf, karena saya selalu ceroboh
Maaf. udah selalu bikin susah..
Maaf, Maaf, Maaf, Maaf :('

Miss My Sunday Time

Sunday, When I was in Palembang....

I had quality time with my dad, mom, and my little brother
I helped my mother cooking cake
My mom always served many delicious food
I watched football with my dad and my little brother
We shared everything togather

Sunday, When I'm in my kost, like now..........

I'm alone in my room
Confuse what have to do
Feeling lonely
Imagining my quality time if I was in my home
And, not seldom, finish the day with tears

Today, 22 April 2011

It's too complex and too complicated to write what in my mind now..
Oke, let I make it more simple :D

Ceritanya, this afternoon, I and my family ( Include my sister and my brother) attended an birthday party from one of our family. Umurnya emang ga muda lagi, but he makes birthday party as glamor as the other seventeen birthday party, in my opinion. But it's really not the problem. He has an extra money, to have everything, and his right to spend his money. And if I were him, I think, I also make my birthday party likes it. when there's so many "high class" people attend in that party. Damn, I feel that I the ugly one, and the stupid one !! Whereas the other girls wore dress, I just wore jeans and T- shirt. But, it's also NOT a BIG problem for me. I always confident with myself. Even, honestly I must say that sometimes I envy to see the girls. Lol.

So, what's the problem hal ?? ahahaa.. I dont know whether I'm too sensitive, but I feel "SEPET". (For the next I prefer use Indonesia, because if we feel "SEPET", it's better to "nyomplak" with Indonesia, really I do, sorry before :p)

Oke, ngerti deh mereka orang borjuis yang punya segalanya, glamor.. Tapi tolong dongs, kayanya lifestylenya berlebihan banget deh. trus penghormatan ke mereka berlebihan banget deh. Pantesan semua orang di dunia ini berebut jadi orang kaya, itu semua supaya mereka terpandang. Kalo mereka salah dimaklumin, atau bakalan dimaafin. Coba kalo orang biasa (kaya gw misalnya ) kesalahan sekecil apapun bisa jadi bahan cemoohan seumur hidup. Kesalahan sekecil apapun ga bakal dimaklumin.

Honestly, inside, I wanna screaming and crying. Really. Maybe I'm looks like "KUCEL" outside, but hey, U MOST KNOW I'M RICHER INSIDE. whatever you say, whatever you think, whatever you see. I am me. University student. And I wanna people SEE me from inside, not outside.

Kadang kesel sendiri ngeliat garagara seseorang yang terlalu dihormati atau disayangin mendapat perlakuan yang "wah" banget, bahkan HARUS RELA NGORBANIN ORANG LAEN, yang seharusnya didahuluin. Tapi garagara dia terlalu dihormatin, disayangin, dibanggain, semuanya DIMAKLUMIN, ga ada YANG BERANI !!

MUNAFUCK

Hey, kamu yang disana....
Muna skali yaa..
Terlihat sangaaaaaaaat baik..
Terlihat sangaaaaaaaat manis..
Kenyataannya ??
Di dalamnya ??

Hey, kamu yang disana...
Buka dulu topengmu...

Kenyataanya kamu hanya ingin disanjung..
Hanya ingin dipuji...
Hanya ingin membuat image positif.....

Kenyataannya sifat aslimu tak semanis senyummu..
Kenyataannya sifat aslimu tak semanis kata - katamu...

Toh, kenyataannya kamu juga ga bisa menghargai,,
Padahal pengen selalu dihargai...
Toh, kenyataannya kamu selalu merasa paling pintar dan benar
Padahal kenyataannya LO BEGO !!

Hey, kamu yang disanaa..
Berhentilah buat bersikap enyek.enyek *U know that I mean ?
Berhentilah buat bersikap manja *Minta dikasihanin..

Oke, last, MUNAFUCK !!

Allah, emang baik :))

Di post sebelumnya, gue berdoa supaya cepetan dateng si tamu bulanannya, eh besoknya, langsung didatengiiin, Allah emang baik yaaaaaaaaaaaa :DDD
Lalu Ya Allah, kapan Engkau memberikan jodoh buat saya ??? :p

Allah, help me :('

Ngga tau kenapa, udah berapa bulan ini, telat mens muluu..
kaya sekarang, ampe tanggal 3 april, dari tanggal 12 januari kemaren belom dateng haid ya Allah..
Sedikit banyak, ini buat stress ya Allah..
kepikiran macem - macem yang buruk.. astafirulloh, amit amit, jauhin itu semua ya Allah :(((
Hope, everything will be okay :DD
Cepet dateng ya haid, ga kangen apa 3 bulan ga ketemu ...DDD
Aminn ya Allah

Inget Hal...

Inget Hal, kalo mereka disina mengharapkan kamu buat belajar...
Maka, belajar lah dengan giat :))

Inget Hal, kalo mereka disana kerja keras buat membiayai kuliah kamu...
Maka, belajarlah untuk lebih hemat, ga boros :))