Homesick + Stress + No Money

Gimana sih ngejelasinnya? Udah homesick, deadline membludak, duit abis.

So?

Homesick :(

There are many things spinning in my head right now. I feel homesick, homesick, and homesick all the time. Cant wait to see my family before I go to KKN :( So, I issued a  ticket flight to Palembang for 27 December, even I dont know in that time, have I get my holiday? Such as gambling thing. Too dare for me. But, I just wanna go home :( Hope that before christmas  holiday, college schedule will end. So, I can go back to my home, hug my family :( uhuhuhu... Pleaaaase Goood :(

Absurd ?

Entah kenapa, akhir akhir ini ngerasa banyak dikecewain sama orang - orang sekitar. Pepatah kalo " Some people stick with you only because they have no one to stick with but when they found someone else, they will just leave you alone " itu bener adanya.

Entah lagi ngerasa terlalu sensitif ataupun apa, tapi kejadian akhir akhir ini begitu ngebuat saya menjadi orang realist kalo dalam ideologi Hubungan Internasional. Realist percaya kalo manusia itu dasarnya adalah mahluk jahat yang akan melakukan apapun untuk mendapatkan tujuannya. Dan,pada akhirnya, membuat saya berpikir... Apakah orang - orang yang saat ini dekat dengan saya hanya ingin mendapatkan tujuannya ataupun hanya ingin memanfaatkan saya? Apa ketika saya ngga punya apa - apa, mereka tetep mau bersama dengan saya? Atau ketika mereka bertemu orang lain yang mungkin akan lebih baik dari saya, apakah saya akan ditinggalkan?

Mungkin ini posting paling absurd di blog ini. Tapi satu hal, apapun, gimanapun keadannya, The one and only person that will stick with you is family. Mauuuu pulaaang :(( Ya Allah, mohoooon banget abis natal, sebelum KKN, perkuliahan udah selesai dan bisa balik ke Palembang :(((( 

Aminn.

I Dont Know

I dont know..
I dont know..
I dont know..

Surprisingly I knew something. BUT do I have to BELIEVE?
Oh God, if is it TRUE, It will be one of the happiest part of my life.
Amiiiin.

But, I dont know...
Arrrrrfggg, there are  a lot things spinned in my head. And I just cant say/write it.
Too complicated..

Happy Birthday Ibu !!

Today, 28 September 2012, is my mom's bday. She is 47th years old now :) All my prays for her God, please guide her everytime. Semoga panjang umur, sehat selalu, dan bahagia selalu. 

I LOVE YOU IBUUUK :))

TIRED!

Hati kacau, pikiran mumet, deadline membludak, jadwal padat, pressure tinggi. What else? Oh God, I just too tired. Gonna back to my home soon hug my parent to recharge my energy.

First Day @Kost (Again)

Almost 3 weeks spent my holiday at Palembang are not enough. I just want more holidays.

That's it !! When, we're around our family, everything seems very happy and joyful. When we're watchinbg TV together, when I helped my mom cooking, when I had joke with my bro, when I had discussed with my dad, all those things make me happy :) And I cant find it in here :(

So, God, I want next holiday can come faster too :) Cant wait to see all of them. I love them. Please guide me in here, and make my way easier to make them proud. Also take care and guide them to in there. Because their healthy and their happiness are my strength too. Amiiin