Benci Untuk Mencinta

Oh betapa ku saat ini
ku benci untuk mencinta
mencintaimu

Oh betapa ku saat ini
ku cinta untuk membenci
membencimu

Reff: aku tak tahu apa yg terjadi
antara aku dan kau
yg ku tahu pasti
ku benci untuk mencintaimu

Lirik : Benci Untuk Mencinta by Naif

" I dont hope too much, because It will hurt too much. I've studied every little things from my experience, and I now that everything must be rely on God too. Just wait, but never hope "

by : Halida Hanum

So, What's in ur head now, from those lyric and also the quote ??

SUPER HECTIC MONTH

Haihai, setelah sekian lama vakum gara gara sempet ga ada laptop kemaren, sekarang gue balik dengan laptop baru loh :* Alhamdulillah yaah. Walaupun udah seminggu lebih make laptop baru, tapi baru kali ini nyempetin posting di blog, karena bulan ini bener bener super hectic !!

Dimulai dari enlight, ppkmb buat maba HI 2011. Yang capenya mintaaa ampyuuuun !! Ternyata ohh ternyata jadi panitia itu capenya dua kali lipat dari maba looh. Maba dateng jam 5 subuh, panitia dateng jam 4. Maba pulang jam 5 sore, kita jam 7.30 malem. Super hectic !!

Kedua, urusan HIMA. Apalagi departemen marketing. Sumpeeeeeeh !!

Ketiga, Kuliah. Semester 3, tanggung jawab lebih gede, beban juga lebih gede.

Keempat. Les Bahasa Inggris. Emang sih cuma dua kali seminggu, tapi teteeeep ajaaa..

Tapi, itu semua dicoba buat dinikmati, karena emang udah konsekuensi. Gue milih, gue daftar, berarti gue harus tanggung jawab :)

NEW LAPTOP

Alhamdulillah yah :) Setelah sebelumnya menimbang - nimbang dengan sangat amat berat, akhirnya akhirnya beli laptop baru juga. Pengen aja beli laptop dengan uang sendiri biar lebih ngerasa susahnya cari uang, terus lebih bertanggung jawab dengan laptop ini.. :)
Makasih Ya Allah, be nice yaa my new laptop :3

Di Palembang + Ga Produktif

Well, emang ga pernah bersyukur lo, hal !! Kemaren nangis nangis pengen pulkam, sekarang udah pulkam malah rese !! Arrrghhhht...

Tapi, bener loh, kalo di Palembang itu ga produktif, kerjaan kurang. Setiap hari , makan tidur, tidur makan muluu.. Males gerak !! Ngantuk mulu.. Otak tumpul.. Semakin mem-babi- lah nii badan. RESE !!

ME = STUPIDEST

Beberapa bulan yang lalu, saya sempat berjanji, ga bakalan nangis lagi karena cinta, apalagi nangisin orang yang sebenarnya ga pantas ditangisin. Air mata saya cukup mahal hanya untuk menangisi hal - hal sepele tersebut. Satu bulan yang lalu juga saya membuat posting tentang kemantapan hati saya untuk say good bye dan juga move on.

Tapi apa yang terjadi malam ini ?? I feel that I,m the stupidest one !! Entah, mungkin dia juga tertawa ngeliat saya seperti orang bodoh di drama korea yang sedang patah hati !! Yeaaah, Poor me !!

Goodbye to New Hello

Okay, after a long - long time hide this feelings and also this memories (only my best friends know about this), I wanna share something about... ehehemmm.. someone special, someone that I've to forget, someone that given laugh and also tears for my life, or whatever laah,, I can't describe or explain it, but I know, sure u can understand :D

Yak, our first meeting happened when I was in third grade of JHS, whereas he in 3third grade of SHS. U must know that, even our school is different, but our school are in one area. So, we can meet everyday :D . Honestly, after that, I didnt believe about "Cinta Pada Pandangan Pertama". Really bullshit, I thought. But everything was changed.

After that impression moment, my days was fulfill of him. Yes, all about him. I can do the stupid-est things because of him. I also do some tacky things also because of him. U must know, my reputation as sweet-kind girl was break :p.. ahahaha

Ahahahaa, If I remind that moments, maybe I feel very embarrassed.. Yes embarrassed !!, But am I feel regret ?? NO WAY !! Even that's stupid moment, I realize that my life more colorful because of him !! And it makes me wanna back and return to Junior High School again !! Even he've made me cry,he also made me laugh !! Since I found him, I feel that I have greatest spirit to school. Had an extra spirit when TO in order to didnt feel shame when he know the result. Felt that 24 hours very very fast, even we met everyday in school, or just text-ing every night. Crazy !!Because of him, I embarrass my self . Ohmaiigaaaadd.. SUPER HIM !!

Finally, for Mr X, thank u for everything. thank u for laugh, tears, support, happiness, good things, and also bad things. I love all memories with u. Thank u for taught me the meaning of love and also broken heart ! I hope, we can find happiness with our own way. Let's say goodbye, memories are memories, and we cant rewind it again.

"It's true that people can move on. But, you can never erase the fact that only amnesia and death can erase memories"

"Anyone can make you happy by doing something special. But, only someone can make you happy without doing anything."

What's on Your Mind ?

What 's on ur mind after saw that picture ?? Loneliness, right ?? Yes, I am !!