Di Palembang + Ga Produktif

Well, emang ga pernah bersyukur lo, hal !! Kemaren nangis nangis pengen pulkam, sekarang udah pulkam malah rese !! Arrrghhhht...

Tapi, bener loh, kalo di Palembang itu ga produktif, kerjaan kurang. Setiap hari , makan tidur, tidur makan muluu.. Males gerak !! Ngantuk mulu.. Otak tumpul.. Semakin mem-babi- lah nii badan. RESE !!

ME = STUPIDEST

Beberapa bulan yang lalu, saya sempat berjanji, ga bakalan nangis lagi karena cinta, apalagi nangisin orang yang sebenarnya ga pantas ditangisin. Air mata saya cukup mahal hanya untuk menangisi hal - hal sepele tersebut. Satu bulan yang lalu juga saya membuat posting tentang kemantapan hati saya untuk say good bye dan juga move on.

Tapi apa yang terjadi malam ini ?? I feel that I,m the stupidest one !! Entah, mungkin dia juga tertawa ngeliat saya seperti orang bodoh di drama korea yang sedang patah hati !! Yeaaah, Poor me !!

Goodbye to New Hello

Okay, after a long - long time hide this feelings and also this memories (only my best friends know about this), I wanna share something about... ehehemmm.. someone special, someone that I've to forget, someone that given laugh and also tears for my life, or whatever laah,, I can't describe or explain it, but I know, sure u can understand :D

Yak, our first meeting happened when I was in third grade of JHS, whereas he in 3third grade of SHS. U must know that, even our school is different, but our school are in one area. So, we can meet everyday :D . Honestly, after that, I didnt believe about "Cinta Pada Pandangan Pertama". Really bullshit, I thought. But everything was changed.

After that impression moment, my days was fulfill of him. Yes, all about him. I can do the stupid-est things because of him. I also do some tacky things also because of him. U must know, my reputation as sweet-kind girl was break :p.. ahahaha

Ahahahaa, If I remind that moments, maybe I feel very embarrassed.. Yes embarrassed !!, But am I feel regret ?? NO WAY !! Even that's stupid moment, I realize that my life more colorful because of him !! And it makes me wanna back and return to Junior High School again !! Even he've made me cry,he also made me laugh !! Since I found him, I feel that I have greatest spirit to school. Had an extra spirit when TO in order to didnt feel shame when he know the result. Felt that 24 hours very very fast, even we met everyday in school, or just text-ing every night. Crazy !!Because of him, I embarrass my self . Ohmaiigaaaadd.. SUPER HIM !!

Finally, for Mr X, thank u for everything. thank u for laugh, tears, support, happiness, good things, and also bad things. I love all memories with u. Thank u for taught me the meaning of love and also broken heart ! I hope, we can find happiness with our own way. Let's say goodbye, memories are memories, and we cant rewind it again.

"It's true that people can move on. But, you can never erase the fact that only amnesia and death can erase memories"

"Anyone can make you happy by doing something special. But, only someone can make you happy without doing anything."

What's on Your Mind ?

What 's on ur mind after saw that picture ?? Loneliness, right ?? Yes, I am !!

what I've done

what I've done? Yeah, nothing good things. Just bad things.

Ya allaaah, knapa aku ga sadar?? Aku disini, dipercaya ortu buat belajar yang baik. Mereka ngelepas aku karena mereka pingin aku belajar, dapet ilmu yang banyak..

But the fact?? Aku ngerasa lebih males dari SMA. Belajar kurang. Dan puncaknya hari ini, aku ketahuan ngasih jawaban ke temen waktu uas. Jadinya? Ya lembar jawaban di coret, dan hampir dipastikan uas dapet 0. Mungkin juga nilai akhir jd E. Cuma keajaiban yg bs ngerubah semuanya. Jadi ini yang aku beri ke mereka? Jadi cuma ini? Ngga bisa buat mereka bangga? Selalu jadi beban pikiran!! Yah, what the hell me yah?

Ngga cuma itu!! Kamu terlalu boros hal !! Bisa ngga spend ur money to buy the things that u really need hal! Cari uang itu susah! Kamu malah seenaknya disini.

Finally, cuma bisa berharap mukjizat supaya ibu atau bapak itu berbaik hati memaafkan kesalahan aku, trus uas masih dinilai. Aminn ya rabb.

Maaaaf :('

Kamis, 12 Mei 2010

One of my worst day ever.. Merasa B.O.D.O.H karena bisa kemalingan L.A.P.T.O.P. Adeuhh haaal :( tolol banget sih lo?? ceroboh banget !! Ga bisa jaga barang !! Kenapa lo slalu ngerepotin !!??

In my pray, I always ask God to make my parent happy, proud of me. Kenyataaannya ??? Saya sungguh terlalu menyebalkan. Hanya bisa bikin orang susah !! That's why I hate myself !!

And Last, I wanna say...
Maaf, karena saya selalu menyebalkan..
Maaf, karena saya selalu ngerepotin..
Maaf, karena saya selalu ceroboh
Maaf. udah selalu bikin susah..
Maaf, Maaf, Maaf, Maaf :('

Miss My Sunday Time

Sunday, When I was in Palembang....

I had quality time with my dad, mom, and my little brother
I helped my mother cooking cake
My mom always served many delicious food
I watched football with my dad and my little brother
We shared everything togather

Sunday, When I'm in my kost, like now..........

I'm alone in my room
Confuse what have to do
Feeling lonely
Imagining my quality time if I was in my home
And, not seldom, finish the day with tears