Allah, help me :('

Ngga tau kenapa, udah berapa bulan ini, telat mens muluu..
kaya sekarang, ampe tanggal 3 april, dari tanggal 12 januari kemaren belom dateng haid ya Allah..
Sedikit banyak, ini buat stress ya Allah..
kepikiran macem - macem yang buruk.. astafirulloh, amit amit, jauhin itu semua ya Allah :(((
Hope, everything will be okay :DD
Cepet dateng ya haid, ga kangen apa 3 bulan ga ketemu ...DDD
Aminn ya Allah

Inget Hal...

Inget Hal, kalo mereka disina mengharapkan kamu buat belajar...
Maka, belajar lah dengan giat :))

Inget Hal, kalo mereka disana kerja keras buat membiayai kuliah kamu...
Maka, belajarlah untuk lebih hemat, ga boros :))

Welcome 18 :)

This is my last day to be 17. There's many things, problem, achievement, happy or sad memories in my 17. But I'm very grateful !! Umur 18 berarti udah harus lebih dewasa, berpikir ke depan, semakin sabar hadapin semua cobaan.

And, in my 18 I wanna thanks ............

• I still have complete family. Dad, Mom, My Little Bro, And my big famz, uncle, aunt, cousin. They are my STRENGTH, because they are the reason why I still can stand there. Bersyukur juga mereka sehat. Terima kasih karena saya udah dikasih keluarga yang luar biasa baiknya, luar biasa ngedukung saya, luar biasa perhatian sama saya. Saya janji akan berusaha juga se luar biasa mungkin buat ngebales semuanya, buat mereka bangga, Yes I Will Do ;)
• Become a member of International Relation Padjajaran 2010. Great achievement for me. So proud of it. Bangga bisa ketemu banyak orang - orang hebat disini, melakukan kegiatan kegiatan hebat juga. Symphonesia, Benderang, Sovereign, Prosperity, are my best experience that I never find before.
  
• Diberi kekuatan yang begitu hebat. Diberi masalah yang comlpicated, but with God, I can solve it :) Tinggal di kost sendiri bukan hal yang mudah, but thanks God, I still can handle it :)

And, in my 18, I wanna and I hope.....

• Still have complete family. Give their happiness and also healthy. It's already make me happy.
• More mature, more strength to face my problem. No more crying because of homesick.
• Make relation with many people. Have many new friends. Active in many organization.
• Kuliah lancar, IPK bagus. Dapet beasiswa. I know it will be a pride of my parent. And there is no best pride in this world except make proud my parent.
• Be stylish !! Ahaaaahahah
• Ga boros lagi, banyak nabung :)
• Having someone to be loved and love me too :) I think my life here will easier with someone that can understand me, care me, and a place to me to rely on.

Terakhir, I just wanna say, WELCOME 18 :)

Beauty but really the beast

Dunia ini emang adil yaa..
Banyak cwe cantik yang sifat dalemnya nauzubillah.. even, not ALL girls like that yaaa..
I have many friends,she are beautiful, kind, smart, and polite..
Even I dont know the real her, bcz i dont know her personally,, but I appreciate it when she try to be kind and polite..

Tapiiii, banyak juga cwe yang mungkin saya bilang terlalu dibutakan oleh paras mereka yang mungkin cantik lah ':)))
Ngerasa cantik itu segalanya !! She can get anything bcz of their beauty. It can be boy,money, or whatever it is lahhh, pokoknya mereka pikir kalo mereka cantik, mereka bisa dapetin semua..

Btw, knapa saya buat posting ini ?? apa karena saya lagi sebel dengan orang yang dideskripsikan seperti yang di atas ??
Iyaaaa bangetttt ....sebut aja namanya Bunga (kaya korban pemerkosaan aja deh )
Dia cantik secara luar, tapi dalamnya ?? Who knows..
gue juga bingung lah, emang cwo demen ya dengan cwe yang sok imut, pamer, terus ngerasa paling cantik gitu ??

sok imut, ngomong plus ketawa di buat - buat, pengen eksis lagi. Sok manja kaya mau diperhatiin cwe. Ngerasa paling cantik, trus bisa ngeremehin semua orang !!

O ya, satu pelajaran yah buat saya dan semuanya.. gw takut banget menertawakan kekurangan orang, karena bisa - bisa gw yang ada di posisi orang itu. Dan gw bs ngerasain gimana kalo gw jadi posisi sbg orang yang ditertawakan itu ??

simple yaa.. saya emang ga cantik - cantik amet. ga pinter - pinter amat. ga kaya - kaya amet. malah terkesan ga cantik, ga pinter, ga kaya #ngenes
tapi saya bisa mikirin perasaan orang lain, dan itu kelebihan saya.
dan saya percaya kalo saya akan sukses dan lebih bahagia dengan cara ini !

Thx God

Thanks God, even it's little hurt
But at least, i can know before it's too late..
And i believe U have prepared the best for me..

Whatever it is..
Whenever it is..
i believe that U will show it in a good time ;)

It's not my first experience being hurted..
And I have felt the worse than this..
So, I know i'll be strong
This isnt big problem !!

Learning from experience

Learning from experience, I always failed from my love story
Learning from experience, I always dissapointed bcz of love
Learning from experience, I always not lucky in love story

I'm not a girl with have no hopes
I was born in this world with one million of hopes
But, not in this case
I try to not hoping anything,everything,something, or someone
I really do

Enough for me to feel dissapointed again
Enough for me to cry about it again
Enough for me to get frustated because of that again

So, I've learned from my experience

My Sad Sunday

Ahahaha, it's not my first post about my complain, living alone in Jatinangor, without my beloved family.
But, that's really what i feel right now !! Feel LONELY !!
Saya cuma sering ngerasa sedih banget aja gitu, dikala hari minggu, yang biasanya kalo di rumah, biasanya kumpul bersama. Nonton sama sama. Ibu kadang baut cemilan buat nonton di rumah sama- sama. Tapi sekarang ? Saya dikost SENDIRI. Makan SENDIRI. Nonton SENDIRI.

Ngerasa hidup ini hampa ? IYYAA !!
Saya kangen Abah, Ibu, Adek. Saya kangen nonton bola bareng mereka. Saya kangen jalan - jalan sama mereka. Saya kangen masakan Ibu. Pokoknya saya kangen.kangen.kangen !!